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19th April, 2008. 3:13 pm. Dear God

Haha If anyone gets to read this its gonna be abit of a shocker that after 3 years ....about that I think Anyway im gonna do an update. I guess im writing really cause I'v had abit of an epiphany, about what i was, what I am, and what I plan to be. One thing for sure is that I deffinatly miss being who I was at college, and probably even more who I was at school. The two and four years respectivly which have passed since those times are full of awesome memorys, but after a Two week break from full time work, and actualy spending all the time with my friends like I would of when I was at school, and college made me realise how much I missed it. Working in a school I think has had a big part in changing me into the person I am now, but for the last few weeks I feel I slipped out of it, made me feel nostaglic. In a way now I feel envious of must my friends who carried on with college or uni straight away the last two years, I way I feel i'v missed out on the last part of my youth, being to tired from work to go out and do much or see people, Things like going out and drinking and dancing and being an idiot, which would of been right down my street before I went into fulltime work, got wound up to much in myself to be bothered to anymore.
I don't mean to sound either that I look back on the last two years with regret, moving out was also a big shocker, experiencing how hard it is to get on and live with people, who you havn't been used to your entire life, people moan about familys, I used to and still will, but I deffinatly felt it was something I took for granted. For the most part im glad the house fell through, it was the first step in helping me realise how I was just drifting along, there are pleanty of good memorys from that house, but none as good as the things I had done before.
I got back to work on Monday and I worry I will again slip into a not so socialble adult again, I might go back to it with a completly diffrent perspective...knowing that ill probably be leaving in the summmer, I sure It will make me feel like im gonna miss the life i'v made for myself now but im pretty sure after leaving I will slowly go back to the way I used to me, not having all my energy drainned by a very demanding job.
Instead of just drifting along now I have something more to look forward to, I look forward to going to university even though Im fully aware is not going to be anywhere near as good as i'd hope it to be, acdemicaly wise it will be probably as disappointing as college, but I look forward to having the energy to be abit of a kid for the next three years, like i'v felt these last two weeks on my spring holiday.

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29th May, 2006. 12:26 am. Woooah its been Awhile

Sooo Yeah
UPDATE

Well i had work last 3 days
What a pile of crap
its been busyish
Hoo well
Yesterday night chilled with adam had a arsed burning curry, which passed its way through me in like 4 hours, DAMMMMMMN
Tonight went out with blee, her mum and james, Went to the arcade She beat me twice at table hockey, CRAP im a loser.
after that went for a walk down southsea, came home and we all ate some buffet food, was cool reminded me of christmas yaa know.
Hmmm Lots of work this week gonna be crazy
Gotta ring hospital radio aswell, To Start my career as a radio DJ RUDDY HELL ITS SOFTCELL lol. and so on
Really there should be loads more to fill in, since i aint wrote anything in like 1 and a half years, but never mind, this will do.
SHIT college is nearly over
Jacker Nacker Norey
Anyone watch beckhams party it looked fun, shame i couldn't make it
PUFF DADDY WAS THERE.



THAT IS ALL lol

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21st July, 2004. 12:11 am. Today

Today isent today, its tomorrow, since im still in a tuesday mood, but it is in fact 12.10, today was a busy busy day, i woke up when amy knock knocked the door, had some fun 'alone' time which was cool, as usualy, althought its not really cool, its like.....warm. but anyway, after that i went to work, it sucked pretty much, i cooked and mopped, did something to get the milk shake to work, and then crosswords and other such puzzels with annette, i then went home for 2 hours after working 12-2, and went back there at 4-7, cleaned and stuff, bumped into ash on the way there, he came in and talked then came back at 7 when i left, with amy beckeh and rob and jenny. went to my house, me and ash played some guitar for awhile, then i ate some shitty fish, it made me feel sick, and my room was too hot, so we all went out. hung about under a bridge like rebels, walked around, i ate some kfc, then came home, and talked on msn, FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN!!!!!!



KILLING IN THE NAME OF, HUUUUUUEEGH

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